Indoor Cycling update
I haven’t missed a class since we started back at the beginning of June. To be honest I love it! It’s bloody hard work and sometimes I know I don’t push myself as hard as I could (I have the resistance lower than I should have it) but according to the bike stats I still burn about 200 – 300 calories a class. The other ladies in the class burn around 500 calories though so I don’t know whether their bikes measure it differently or they are working twice as hard but it gives me something to aspire to 
On the first Saturday of September we are having a Tour de France cycling class, 2 hours of cycling based on the actual TdF stages. I don’t know how they are going to condense it down to just 2 hours of cycling but I’m actually looking forward to it!
In order to do some training for it I have added a SPIN playlist on my Ipod and am going to put together different lengths of training tracks to keep me moving. I’m trying to find songs that are good for “hill climbing”, sprinting and recovery along with warm up and cool down songs.
I’m feeling motivated at the moment, possibly because I’m not focusing on the weight and measurements so much and more on the fitness achievements . However, weight and measurements are still very important to me as they are tied up with my self-esteem, how I think people view me and how I feel about myself.
I don’t know if it’s a normal feeling but I find that I’m not as confident in things that I do especially if I do something wrong as my first thought is that other people would be thinking “oh, stupid, fat, bitch/woman”. I can’t help it that’s what I think and I feel that when I lose the weight and am no longer overweight that I will have more confidence to do more things, take more risks and in doing so make more mistakes without the fear that my weight may be brought into my failures or even successes.
I know I’ve had lots of stops and starts but as long as I’m still starting again that’s progress right?